I dont want to remember

I dont want to remember that point,
where we were disjoint,
though i put my step ahead,
but sometimes i stop and look back.

a hope keep tries to rise,
when i turn around it dies,
i expected you to be stand there,
but i am lonely and you are nowhere.

you do feel the same,
or just i am insane,
expecting love from the one who never bother
who never precise to be together.